Why is it that I am still awake at mid-night? My family is all asleep, but I am still awake? I am wasting time playing on FB. That is such a waste of time....and killing my sleep.
I am really struggling allot lately. Just with the thoughts of never having anymore babies. My Hubby says he doesn't want anymore. But I still not sure I am done. I would love to have another girl. But I know that only God knows what is in store for your family.
I would love for my Princess to have a sister. I would love to have another Daughter. But I can't make my Husband wait something he doesn't want. He says if God blesses us with another like he did with our youngest that is fine. But we aren't going to be trying.
I agree for now it's not a good idea. Financially we aren't in a good place. Space is tight but we could manage. Car is too small, but could find something that would work...probably an older car.
I just don't know. I am trying to pray every time I get sad about it or frustrated. I need to just let it go and trust the Lord. I need to respect my Husbands wishes. But it is so hard to let someone let decide what you can do or not do with your body.
I would totally be open for adoption, but Hubby isn't sure. If we took that route I would want a child (girl) that is between our last 2 kids. We already had 5 babies of our own. And I know their our families out there that don't have any. I also know there are tons of kids that need a good Christian family And we could be that for a little girl. I just to keep praying that God will work a miracle in our family.
It just kills me when I see kids that are mistreated. Or when you see the Wednesday Child on channel 8. I just want to scope those kids up and love them forever. I wish we had a giant house and an endless amount of money. I would take them all in.
On another note. I am really worried about myself. I had a D&C at the end of July. I had a clogged left tube. They think it was caused because of my really heavy bleeding. So they did a D&C to clean me out and put a scope up there while they did it. They said everything looked good. And my bio-poisy came back normal. They said that should fix my heavy periods.
The problem is it didn't. I didn't start getting my period again after I had my youngest until he was almost 1. But then it was really really heavy. Then starting in March is started coming 2 - 4 days earlier than the month before. And still really heavy. Before my youngest my periods would last around 3 - 5 days. Now they last 6 - 8 days. They are so heavy and allot (I mean allot) of clotting. Last month I went through 5 taxpons in 6 hours. Yesterday I went through 3 in 4 hours. So not good. They checked my hormone levels, came back fine.
I had another sonogram about 6 weeks after my D&C and my left tube was clear. So now we are looking at around D&C and another scope. I am just not sure what is going on. I am really scared that something could be wrong...I mean really wrong. I don't want to lose my girl stuff ya know.
I don't want to leave my family and die young. I don't want something to be really wrong. The nurse (she is so sweet) said this could just be my normal periods from now on. I don't want that either. My doctor said that he could make sure I don't want anymore periods. But I am not ready for that.
So just not sure what to do....Just trying to trust in God!!
Mommy of 5
Daily Bible Verse
Monday, October 12, 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
More about me...
Well, today was a good day so far. We took our annual family pictures. We will use these as our Christmas Pictures. We use a Photographer that does a Fundraiser thing with my Twins Group. She does a wonderful job. If I can find her info I will add it to my blog.
The kids really did good this year. It helps that they are getting older. But at the same time it is sad too. The first time we did this Princess was maybe 9 months old. She is now 3 1/2. Time flies pretty fast. We should get a CD of the pictures in about 3 to 4 weeks. I am excited to see how they come out!!
We are thinking of going to the Balloon Festival here. We will see. I hope we can get some pictures.
I did my Mom Study last Wednesday. I have homework I haven't done yet. I am hoping to get allot out of this class. I really need to get closer and deeper with God. I love him with all my heart, but have trouble finding time to slow down and finding time to read his word. I need God to remind me to slow down and allow God to refresh me. I think...No I know that is most of my problem with feeling like a failure. I am allowing myself to get run down and letting Satan get in my head.
I really need to just slow down and stop what I am doing and be still. I love Singing and Praising God in the car when I am driving. I love how the music makes me feel. I love the closenessI feel when I sing to my Lord. But I think of what I am missing by not being in his word!! Pray for me!!
Mommy of 5
The kids really did good this year. It helps that they are getting older. But at the same time it is sad too. The first time we did this Princess was maybe 9 months old. She is now 3 1/2. Time flies pretty fast. We should get a CD of the pictures in about 3 to 4 weeks. I am excited to see how they come out!!
We are thinking of going to the Balloon Festival here. We will see. I hope we can get some pictures.
I did my Mom Study last Wednesday. I have homework I haven't done yet. I am hoping to get allot out of this class. I really need to get closer and deeper with God. I love him with all my heart, but have trouble finding time to slow down and finding time to read his word. I need God to remind me to slow down and allow God to refresh me. I think...No I know that is most of my problem with feeling like a failure. I am allowing myself to get run down and letting Satan get in my head.
I really need to just slow down and stop what I am doing and be still. I love Singing and Praising God in the car when I am driving. I love how the music makes me feel. I love the closenessI feel when I sing to my Lord. But I think of what I am missing by not being in his word!! Pray for me!!
Mommy of 5
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Another Day in My Life...
Well, I have been struggling allot lately. Just feeling pulled every which way....I feel like I am such a failure. I can't keep up everything I have in the air. I feel everything keeps falling no matter how many time I throw them back up.
I know I am not alone. I know there are so many women that feel like this. It doesn't help telling myself I have 5 kids I need to give myself a break. It doesn't help to tell myself you didn't get enough sleep... Nothing I tell myself helps. I just feel like a failure. I can't get my Hubby's clothes folded (even if I can't get them put away at least folded on the bed) so they won't be so wrinkly. No he hasn't said anything.... I just feel bad. I can't figure out anything or have the energy to get anything for dinner. So Hubby has to make it. It is hard to keep the kitchen clean every day..... I am trying to get my Tupperware Business growing. Having trouble with that. I am having a hard time (maybe I should say an extremely hard time) finding people to Host a Party!!! I am wanting to start Teaching my 2 kids at home. But haven't done much. I really am so tired. I have my Thyroid checked every 4 months. It has been fine. So not sure why I am to tired to do much. The whole afternoon is full of trying to get Prince "A's" books read for school. And the Twins and their "sight words" done. Then we have Awana's on Wednesday. So we are working on Bible Verses. So much to do.
I am doing the best I can. I do at least 1 load of Laundry everyday.... Prince "J" is out of pull-ups (we were tired of buying them...he's 5 1/2), but still pees in his pants at night. The poor kid just sleeps so hard. So I am washing his stuff at least 5 -7 times a week. Thankfully we have a pad that he lays on so I don't have to wash his whole sheet and stuff. I do the dishwasher everyday....ok at least most day's.... Sometimes not until 5;30 before Hubby gets home...But it gets done. The clothes get washed and dried. But not always put away or folded...
I try to pass my Tupperware Flyer out when we are out...But can't go everyday because of Gas....And again I am too tired. Heck I am tired just sitting here typing this while the 2 younger kids play. I am holding onto Faith that God will continue to help my Business grow. I can't do it without him!!!
There is so much to do and not enough time. And when I don't get it done I feel like a failure!!! I put so much pressure on myself...we all do. But why??? Who knows.
The older 3 boys are enjoying school. I am enjoying having a little less stress and more quiet in the house too.
Now for the reason I started this post. I went to my 1st Moms Bible Study yesterday. I loved it!! They have childcare for my younger 2 (had to budget that in). But I really felt like God lead me to this!! It is a class where older ones mentor us younger moms (not feeling so young anymore!!!). But I think it will be good for me. I need to be surrounded by other women that understand what I am going through. I am not able to get out allot because of how late my Hubby gets home. My Bible Class through my Life Group (AKA ABF) isn't meeting anymore. I loved it but couldn't make it on the day they meet anymore since my Hubby doesn't get home in time (I am grateful he has a job!!!) and it didn't seem like had allot of interest either. Sad.... But I know we all have allot going on....
But I really enjoyed the class. It will last for another 7 weeks. I am looking forward to seeing what God will do in my life through this class. I am looking forward to spending more time with God. I am needing to really find time everyday to spend with my Lord and my God. But I don't....It's my own fault. I put so many things before him. I am a sinful women.... I fall so short of his will for me. I pray that with his class God will help me to grow and to learn to become the women, mother, and wife God created me to be. I can't do that without him.
Well, I would love to write more....Because I have so much more to say...But I need to get the kids to nap.
Mommy of 5
I know I am not alone. I know there are so many women that feel like this. It doesn't help telling myself I have 5 kids I need to give myself a break. It doesn't help to tell myself you didn't get enough sleep... Nothing I tell myself helps. I just feel like a failure. I can't get my Hubby's clothes folded (even if I can't get them put away at least folded on the bed) so they won't be so wrinkly. No he hasn't said anything.... I just feel bad. I can't figure out anything or have the energy to get anything for dinner. So Hubby has to make it. It is hard to keep the kitchen clean every day..... I am trying to get my Tupperware Business growing. Having trouble with that. I am having a hard time (maybe I should say an extremely hard time) finding people to Host a Party!!! I am wanting to start Teaching my 2 kids at home. But haven't done much. I really am so tired. I have my Thyroid checked every 4 months. It has been fine. So not sure why I am to tired to do much. The whole afternoon is full of trying to get Prince "A's" books read for school. And the Twins and their "sight words" done. Then we have Awana's on Wednesday. So we are working on Bible Verses. So much to do.
I am doing the best I can. I do at least 1 load of Laundry everyday.... Prince "J" is out of pull-ups (we were tired of buying them...he's 5 1/2), but still pees in his pants at night. The poor kid just sleeps so hard. So I am washing his stuff at least 5 -7 times a week. Thankfully we have a pad that he lays on so I don't have to wash his whole sheet and stuff. I do the dishwasher everyday....ok at least most day's.... Sometimes not until 5;30 before Hubby gets home...But it gets done. The clothes get washed and dried. But not always put away or folded...
I try to pass my Tupperware Flyer out when we are out...But can't go everyday because of Gas....And again I am too tired. Heck I am tired just sitting here typing this while the 2 younger kids play. I am holding onto Faith that God will continue to help my Business grow. I can't do it without him!!!
There is so much to do and not enough time. And when I don't get it done I feel like a failure!!! I put so much pressure on myself...we all do. But why??? Who knows.
The older 3 boys are enjoying school. I am enjoying having a little less stress and more quiet in the house too.
Now for the reason I started this post. I went to my 1st Moms Bible Study yesterday. I loved it!! They have childcare for my younger 2 (had to budget that in). But I really felt like God lead me to this!! It is a class where older ones mentor us younger moms (not feeling so young anymore!!!). But I think it will be good for me. I need to be surrounded by other women that understand what I am going through. I am not able to get out allot because of how late my Hubby gets home. My Bible Class through my Life Group (AKA ABF) isn't meeting anymore. I loved it but couldn't make it on the day they meet anymore since my Hubby doesn't get home in time (I am grateful he has a job!!!) and it didn't seem like had allot of interest either. Sad.... But I know we all have allot going on....
But I really enjoyed the class. It will last for another 7 weeks. I am looking forward to seeing what God will do in my life through this class. I am looking forward to spending more time with God. I am needing to really find time everyday to spend with my Lord and my God. But I don't....It's my own fault. I put so many things before him. I am a sinful women.... I fall so short of his will for me. I pray that with his class God will help me to grow and to learn to become the women, mother, and wife God created me to be. I can't do that without him.
Well, I would love to write more....Because I have so much more to say...But I need to get the kids to nap.
Mommy of 5
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Cool Website...
I got this email today from Pssst. It is a cool website you can join and get free samples, coupons, and heads up on new products. Check it out...
Round-Out Snack Time!
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Each variety is 100% natural and made with a combination of select ingredients such as roasted nuts, whole grain oats and honey.
Find them in the granola bar aisle in four easy-to-crave varieties: Honey Roasted Peanut, Nut Lovers, Roasted Almond and Roasted Cashew.
Enjoy,
Mommy of 5
Round-Out Snack Time!
Nature Valley Granola Nut Clusters offer nut fans a tasty new choice for on-the-go goodness — a perfect combination of nuts and granola rolled into one!
Each variety is 100% natural and made with a combination of select ingredients such as roasted nuts, whole grain oats and honey.
Find them in the granola bar aisle in four easy-to-crave varieties: Honey Roasted Peanut, Nut Lovers, Roasted Almond and Roasted Cashew.
Enjoy,
Mommy of 5
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
1st Day of School...
This Monday was the 1st day of school for my 3 older boys. Prince "A" started 2nd grade, and the twins started Kindergarten. They have really enjoyed being back at school!! And I have enjoyed the peace and quiet of having only 2 kids at home...
Here are a few pictures of the 1st day of school...
All 3 boy's on our way to school...
Princess "T" she is one of Prince "A" friends
Sadly, they are not in the same class this year.
The "A" Family
Prince "A" in his New 2nd Grade Class
Prince "A" and his teacher Mrs. "A"
Prince "J" and Prince "R"
Their 1st day of Kindergarten...
Prince "J" in his new class
Daddy and Prince "R" in his new class
Prince "J" taking the Tour of the school
Prince "J" eating his cookie
Prince "R" eating his cookie
Prince "J" and his new teacher Mrs. "S"
This is her 1st year to teach. We know her very well.
We are excited to have her as a teacher this year.
Prince "R" and his Teacher Mrs. "L"
We are excited to have her too...
I hope this will be a wonderful year!!
Mommy of 5
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Not sure what to Label this...
I am not doing really good with this blog thing right now. I have been so busy with the kids and getting my Tupperware Business going that I haven't had much time to write.
So not allot new here. School starts next Monday. I will have 3 kids in school all day this year!! I am so excited. I am also scared, because I didn't work with any of them enough this summer. I am praying that my oldest will do great in 2nd grade. And that the twins do good in Kindergarten. They will not be in the same class. I wanted them to be...but I was talked out of it. Praying it will be the right choose.
My baby is almost 2 and were not pregnant again. This is the longest we have gone not being pregnant again. I am ok with not being pregnant right now. We really can't afford to have another baby right now. But I am praying that God will bless our Family will another little girl some time in the future....
I am going to be joining a new Moms Study Group at Church this Fall. I am so excited to be trying something new. I will get to meet new Moms and get to get out of the house a little. I hope it will be fun and I will learn something.
I have been having allot of trouble falling asleep lately. Not sure why... But it is driving me crazy!! But thats life.....
I have also really been feeling a little lost in life. I realized last night I really need to spend more time in God's Word. So instead of playing on FB at night when I can't sleep, I am going to try and read some of the Bible. Maybe I will find some more peace in my life and feel God's comfort more. I really feel his Blessing in my new Business. He is leading me to people and putting people in my life that are helping me with my new Business. It is so awesome!!
I had my first real Tupperware Party this Sunday. It was great!! I was really nervous, but did ok. There were 3 ladies and the Hostess. My friend "L" Hosted my Tupperware Party. She is great!! She had almost $200 in sales when I got there. And then when I left we had almost $650 in sales!! That is the best party I have ever had in any of my past business. She has a friend that is going to be Hosting a Party for me in Sept. She already has like 20 something people that said they would be coming. I am really nervous about that many people. But I know it will be great. I am so excited!!! My friend "L" has another friend that is going to be Hosting a Party in October. So this is good. My Business is taking off!! I really felt God telling me to try Tupperware and it is really paying off!! I GIVE GOD ALL THE PRAISE AND GLORY IN ALL MY SUCCESS. Because it is not because of me, but because of God's Blessing in my life!!
So I guess that is it. If you want to check out my Tupperware Website click here .
Mommy of 5
So not allot new here. School starts next Monday. I will have 3 kids in school all day this year!! I am so excited. I am also scared, because I didn't work with any of them enough this summer. I am praying that my oldest will do great in 2nd grade. And that the twins do good in Kindergarten. They will not be in the same class. I wanted them to be...but I was talked out of it. Praying it will be the right choose.
My baby is almost 2 and were not pregnant again. This is the longest we have gone not being pregnant again. I am ok with not being pregnant right now. We really can't afford to have another baby right now. But I am praying that God will bless our Family will another little girl some time in the future....
I am going to be joining a new Moms Study Group at Church this Fall. I am so excited to be trying something new. I will get to meet new Moms and get to get out of the house a little. I hope it will be fun and I will learn something.
I have been having allot of trouble falling asleep lately. Not sure why... But it is driving me crazy!! But thats life.....
I have also really been feeling a little lost in life. I realized last night I really need to spend more time in God's Word. So instead of playing on FB at night when I can't sleep, I am going to try and read some of the Bible. Maybe I will find some more peace in my life and feel God's comfort more. I really feel his Blessing in my new Business. He is leading me to people and putting people in my life that are helping me with my new Business. It is so awesome!!
I had my first real Tupperware Party this Sunday. It was great!! I was really nervous, but did ok. There were 3 ladies and the Hostess. My friend "L" Hosted my Tupperware Party. She is great!! She had almost $200 in sales when I got there. And then when I left we had almost $650 in sales!! That is the best party I have ever had in any of my past business. She has a friend that is going to be Hosting a Party for me in Sept. She already has like 20 something people that said they would be coming. I am really nervous about that many people. But I know it will be great. I am so excited!!! My friend "L" has another friend that is going to be Hosting a Party in October. So this is good. My Business is taking off!! I really felt God telling me to try Tupperware and it is really paying off!! I GIVE GOD ALL THE PRAISE AND GLORY IN ALL MY SUCCESS. Because it is not because of me, but because of God's Blessing in my life!!
So I guess that is it. If you want to check out my Tupperware Website click here .
Mommy of 5
Not sure what to Label this...
I am not doing really good with this blog thing right now. I have been so busy with the kids and getting my Tupperware Business going that I haven't had much time to write.
So not allot new here. School starts next Monday. I will have 3 kids in school all day this year!! I am so excited. I am also scared, because I didn't work with any of them enough this summer. I am praying that my oldest will do great in 2nd grade. And that the twins do good in Kindergarten. They will not be in the same class. I wanted them to be...but I was talked out of it. Praying it will be the right choose.
My baby is almost 2 and were not pregnant again. This is the longest we have gone not being pregnant again. I am ok with not being pregnant right now. We really can't afford to have another baby right now. But I am praying that God will bless our Family will another little girl some time in the future....
I am going to be joining a new Moms Study Group at Church this Fall. I am so excited to be trying something new. I will get to meet new Moms and get to get out of the house a little. I hope it will be fun and I will learn something.
I have been having allot of trouble falling asleep lately. Not sure why... But it is driving me crazy!! But thats life.....
I have also really been feeling a little lost in life. I realized last night I really need to spend more time in God's Word. So instead of playing on FB at night when I can't sleep, I am going to try and read some of the Bible. Maybe I will find some more peace in my life and feel God's comfort more. I really feel his Blessing in my new Business. He is leading me to people and putting people in my life that are helping me with my new Business. It is so awesome!!
I had my first real Tupperware Party this Sunday. It was great!! I was really nervous, but did ok. There were 3 ladies and the Hostess. My friend "L" Hosted my Tupperware Party. She is great!! She had almost $200 in sales when I got there. And then when I left we had almost $650 in sales!! That is the best party I have ever had in any of my past business. She has a friend that is going to be Hosting a Party for me in Sept. She already has like 20 something people that said they would be coming. I am really nervous about that many people. But I know it will be great. I am so excited!!! My friend "L" has another friend that is going to be Hosting a Party in October. So this is good. My Business is taking off!! I really felt God telling me to try Tupperware and it is really paying off!! I GIVE GOD ALL THE PRAISE AND GLORY IN ALL MY SUCCESS. Because it is not because of me, but because of God's Blessing in my life!!
So I guess that is it. If you want to check out my Tupperware Website click here .
Mommy of 5
So not allot new here. School starts next Monday. I will have 3 kids in school all day this year!! I am so excited. I am also scared, because I didn't work with any of them enough this summer. I am praying that my oldest will do great in 2nd grade. And that the twins do good in Kindergarten. They will not be in the same class. I wanted them to be...but I was talked out of it. Praying it will be the right choose.
My baby is almost 2 and were not pregnant again. This is the longest we have gone not being pregnant again. I am ok with not being pregnant right now. We really can't afford to have another baby right now. But I am praying that God will bless our Family will another little girl some time in the future....
I am going to be joining a new Moms Study Group at Church this Fall. I am so excited to be trying something new. I will get to meet new Moms and get to get out of the house a little. I hope it will be fun and I will learn something.
I have been having allot of trouble falling asleep lately. Not sure why... But it is driving me crazy!! But thats life.....
I have also really been feeling a little lost in life. I realized last night I really need to spend more time in God's Word. So instead of playing on FB at night when I can't sleep, I am going to try and read some of the Bible. Maybe I will find some more peace in my life and feel God's comfort more. I really feel his Blessing in my new Business. He is leading me to people and putting people in my life that are helping me with my new Business. It is so awesome!!
I had my first real Tupperware Party this Sunday. It was great!! I was really nervous, but did ok. There were 3 ladies and the Hostess. My friend "L" Hosted my Tupperware Party. She is great!! She had almost $200 in sales when I got there. And then when I left we had almost $650 in sales!! That is the best party I have ever had in any of my past business. She has a friend that is going to be Hosting a Party for me in Sept. She already has like 20 something people that said they would be coming. I am really nervous about that many people. But I know it will be great. I am so excited!!! My friend "L" has another friend that is going to be Hosting a Party in October. So this is good. My Business is taking off!! I really felt God telling me to try Tupperware and it is really paying off!! I GIVE GOD ALL THE PRAISE AND GLORY IN ALL MY SUCCESS. Because it is not because of me, but because of God's Blessing in my life!!
So I guess that is it. If you want to check out my Tupperware Website click here .
Mommy of 5
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