My Family

Alone?

2009-12-28T23:27:00.003-06:00

Have you ever wondered how anyone could feel alone in a crowd full of people? How you could wonder how people could feel like something so small?

I can't remember the last time I had a play date. I can't remember the last time I was invited out with someone. I can't remember the last time my Hubby and I were invited out with another couple. I feel like I am so alone outside of my family.

I know people care. I know I have friends...but it doesn't seem to go past that. But I can't understand why. I have a best friend but she lives so far away, that we can't do anything together. So that doesn't help much.

I have people I can talk to...but not much more than skin deep. I have only a few people I can really talk to. A few people I can truly trust with my life. I have been so hurt and stabbed by people that it isn't even funny.

I just wish I knew why I feel so alone and left out. I wish I could find a place were I fit in. A place I could really feel like myself.

I know that God loves me for me. God forgives my short comings...all of them. And that gives me peace.

I just pray that God would put couples in our lives that share the same values we do. A
couple(s) that would want to do things with us. I pray that I could find friends that would want to do things with me.

I love the people in my life. I know they care. But I just wish I could really have a few people I could hang out with. You know that feeling? I don't. I don't think I ever have.

I think that is the problem. I have had this issue my whole life. No one have ever really wanted to hang out with me. I am not the person that gets invited to things. I am not the popular girl. And in a way that is good. It kept me out of trouble in school. But I just wish I could have some people to hang out with.

I don't want anyone to take anything I say and write here personally. This post is not to be read into. It is just something I have been struggling with my whole life. I guess I am just one of those people that have allot of people I know on a skin deep level but just don't fit in anywhere else. I know people are busy, they have so many old friends that they just don't need more, and I am not on the same level as many people.

I am not skinny, popular, rich, or have a real job. I don't have work associates or anything like that.

But I am me. I am loved by God. My children and my Hubby love me!!! And that is right now is what I need!!

Mommy of 5

Christmas Break

2009-12-23T11:12:00.002-06:00

Day # 3. And we still have 8 more days of no school (not including weekends). Is it over yet?

Christmas Eve is tomorrow. I am hoping to take the kids to FBC where they go for Awana's for Christmas Eve Service. I will be on my own because Hubby has to work. It is allot closer and we would love to see some friends and wish them a Merry Christmas.

We will be having Christmas at our House again this year. My brothers and Sister in Law will be coming. And of course my mom will be here. And maybe a friend of my brothers, we will see.

I am looking forward to Christmas Morning. Seeing the kids open gifts and playing with a few new toys. We tried to really limit what they got again this year. Only 1 toy from Santa and a couple from Mommy and Daddy.

What are you doing for Christmas? How do you Celebrate?

Merry Christmas...

Mommy of 5

tired...

2009-12-19T00:50:00.002-06:00

I am so tired. Couldn't be because I stay up too late and then wake up early to get the kids ready for school.

So maybe soon I'll learn to go to bed sooner.... Maybe

I just finished my Christmas Shopping. I had to get (really didn't have to get) but I guess wanted to make sure he had more than 1 time for just him to open. So I am done now. Most of the adults are getting some kind of Tupperware for Christmas. Since I am sellng Tupperware that makes sense to me.

How about you? Are you done with Shopping? Where are you going for Christmas?

I am loving the Christmas Lights on people's homes. It is so nice to see!!

I have even found some stores that are saying "Merry Christmas" and not Happy Holidays. It if wasn't for Jesus we wouldn't even have Christmas!!!

Anyways, we are doing good so far. We have jobs, a home, food, and a car that runs. So we are blessed. We have 5 kids that are healthy and for the most part normal. So agian we are blessesd. We are still married after almost 9 years of marriage....most people nowadays can't say that!! We are blessed....

Well, it is late and as I started out saying... I am tired!!

Mommy of 5

Lately

2009-10-12T00:03:00.003-05:00

Why is it that I am still awake at mid-night? My family is all asleep, but I am still awake? I am wasting time playing on FB. That is such a waste of time....and killing my sleep.

I am really struggling allot lately. Just with the thoughts of never having anymore babies. My Hubby says he doesn't want anymore. But I still not sure I am done. I would love to have another girl. But I know that only God knows what is in store for your family.

I would love for my Princess to have a sister. I would love to have another Daughter. But I can't make my Husband wait something he doesn't want. He says if God blesses us with another like he did with our youngest that is fine. But we aren't going to be trying.

I agree for now it's not a good idea. Financially we aren't in a good place. Space is tight but we could manage. Car is too small, but could find something that would work...probably an older car.

I just don't know. I am trying to pray every time I get sad about it or frustrated. I need to just let it go and trust the Lord. I need to respect my Husbands wishes. But it is so hard to let someone let decide what you can do or not do with your body.

I would totally be open for adoption, but Hubby isn't sure. If we took that route I would want a child (girl) that is between our last 2 kids. We already had 5 babies of our own. And I know their our families out there that don't have any. I also know there are tons of kids that need a good Christian family And we could be that for a little girl. I just to keep praying that God will work a miracle in our family.

It just kills me when I see kids that are mistreated. Or when you see the Wednesday Child on channel 8. I just want to scope those kids up and love them forever. I wish we had a giant house and an endless amount of money. I would take them all in.

On another note. I am really worried about myself. I had a D&C at the end of July. I had a clogged left tube. They think it was caused because of my really heavy bleeding. So they did a D&C to clean me out and put a scope up there while they did it. They said everything looked good. And my bio-poisy came back normal. They said that should fix my heavy periods.

The problem is it didn't. I didn't start getting my period again after I had my youngest until he was almost 1. But then it was really really heavy. Then starting in March is started coming 2 - 4 days earlier than the month before. And still really heavy. Before my youngest my periods would last around 3 - 5 days. Now they last 6 - 8 days. They are so heavy and allot (I mean allot) of clotting. Last month I went through 5 taxpons in 6 hours. Yesterday I went through 3 in 4 hours. So not good. They checked my hormone levels, came back fine.

I had another sonogram about 6 weeks after my D&C and my left tube was clear. So now we are looking at around D&C and another scope. I am just not sure what is going on. I am really scared that something could be wrong...I mean really wrong. I don't want to lose my girl stuff ya know.

I don't want to leave my family and die young. I don't want something to be really wrong. The nurse (she is so sweet) said this could just be my normal periods from now on. I don't want that either. My doctor said that he could make sure I don't want anymore periods. But I am not ready for that.

So just not sure what to do....Just trying to trust in God!!

Mommy of 5

More about me...

2009-09-19T14:33:00.002-05:00

Well, today was a good day so far. We took our annual family pictures. We will use these as our Christmas Pictures. We use a Photographer that does a Fundraiser thing with my Twins Group. She does a wonderful job. If I can find her info I will add it to my blog.

The kids really did good this year. It helps that they are getting older. But at the same time it is sad too. The first time we did this Princess was maybe 9 months old. She is now 3 1/2. Time flies pretty fast. We should get a CD of the pictures in about 3 to 4 weeks. I am excited to see how they come out!!

We are thinking of going to the Balloon Festival here. We will see. I hope we can get some pictures.

I did my Mom Study last Wednesday. I have homework I haven't done yet. I am hoping to get allot out of this class. I really need to get closer and deeper with God. I love him with all my heart, but have trouble finding time to slow down and finding time to read his word. I need God to remind me to slow down and allow God to refresh me. I think...No I know that is most of my problem with feeling like a failure. I am allowing myself to get run down and letting Satan get in my head.

I really need to just slow down and stop what I am doing and be still. I love Singing and Praising God in the car when I am driving. I love how the music makes me feel. I love the closenessI feel when I sing to my Lord. But I think of what I am missing by not being in his word!! Pray for me!!

Mommy of 5

Another Day in My Life...

2009-09-17T10:28:00.002-05:00

Well, I have been struggling allot lately. Just feeling pulled every which way....I feel like I am such a failure. I can't keep up everything I have in the air. I feel everything keeps falling no matter how many time I throw them back up.

I know I am not alone. I know there are so many women that feel like this. It doesn't help telling myself I have 5 kids I need to give myself a break. It doesn't help to tell myself you didn't get enough sleep... Nothing I tell myself helps. I just feel like a failure. I can't get my Hubby's clothes folded (even if I can't get them put away at least folded on the bed) so they won't be so wrinkly. No he hasn't said anything.... I just feel bad. I can't figure out anything or have the energy to get anything for dinner. So Hubby has to make it. It is hard to keep the kitchen clean every day..... I am trying to get my Tupperware Business growing. Having trouble with that. I am having a hard time (maybe I should say an extremely hard time) finding people to Host a Party!!! I am wanting to start Teaching my 2 kids at home. But haven't done much. I really am so tired. I have my Thyroid checked every 4 months. It has been fine. So not sure why I am to tired to do much. The whole afternoon is full of trying to get Prince "A's" books read for school. And the Twins and their "sight words" done. Then we have Awana's on Wednesday. So we are working on Bible Verses. So much to do.

I am doing the best I can. I do at least 1 load of Laundry everyday.... Prince "J" is out of pull-ups (we were tired of buying them...he's 5 1/2), but still pees in his pants at night. The poor kid just sleeps so hard. So I am washing his stuff at least 5 -7 times a week. Thankfully we have a pad that he lays on so I don't have to wash his whole sheet and stuff. I do the dishwasher everyday....ok at least most day's.... Sometimes not until 5;30 before Hubby gets home...But it gets done. The clothes get washed and dried. But not always put away or folded...

I try to pass my Tupperware Flyer out when we are out...But can't go everyday because of Gas....And again I am too tired. Heck I am tired just sitting here typing this while the 2 younger kids play. I am holding onto Faith that God will continue to help my Business grow. I can't do it without him!!!

There is so much to do and not enough time. And when I don't get it done I feel like a failure!!! I put so much pressure on myself...we all do. But why??? Who knows.

The older 3 boys are enjoying school. I am enjoying having a little less stress and more quiet in the house too.

Now for the reason I started this post. I went to my 1st Moms Bible Study yesterday. I loved it!! They have childcare for my younger 2 (had to budget that in). But I really felt like God lead me to this!! It is a class where older ones mentor us younger moms (not feeling so young anymore!!!). But I think it will be good for me. I need to be surrounded by other women that understand what I am going through. I am not able to get out allot because of how late my Hubby gets home. My Bible Class through my Life Group (AKA ABF) isn't meeting anymore. I loved it but couldn't make it on the day they meet anymore since my Hubby doesn't get home in time (I am grateful he has a job!!!) and it didn't seem like had allot of interest either. Sad.... But I know we all have allot going on....

But I really enjoyed the class. It will last for another 7 weeks. I am looking forward to seeing what God will do in my life through this class. I am looking forward to spending more time with God. I am needing to really find time everyday to spend with my Lord and my God. But I don't....It's my own fault. I put so many things before him. I am a sinful women.... I fall so short of his will for me. I pray that with his class God will help me to grow and to learn to become the women, mother, and wife God created me to be. I can't do that without him.

Well, I would love to write more....Because I have so much more to say...But I need to get the kids to nap.

Mommy of 5

Cool Website...

2009-09-09T22:07:00.004-05:00

I got this email today from Pssst. It is a cool website you can join and get free samples, coupons, and heads up on new products. Check it out...

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Find them in the granola bar aisle in four easy-to-crave varieties: Honey Roasted Peanut, Nut Lovers, Roasted Almond and Roasted Cashew.

Enjoy,

Mommy of 5

1st Day of School...

2009-08-26T16:18:00.007-05:00

This Monday was the 1st day of school for my 3 older boys. Prince "A" started 2nd grade, and the twins started Kindergarten. They have really enjoyed being back at school!! And I have enjoyed the peace and quiet of having only 2 kids at home...

Here are a few pictures of the 1st day of school...

All 3 boy's on our way to school...

Princess "T" she is one of Prince "A" friends
Sadly, they are not in the same class this year.

Prince "A" lining up to go to class

The "A" Family

Prince "A" in his New 2nd Grade Class

Prince "A" and his teacher Mrs. "A"

Prince "J" and Prince "R"

Their 1st day of Kindergarten...

Prince "J" in his new class

Daddy and Prince "R" in his new class

Prince "J" taking the Tour of the school

Prince "J" eating his cookie

Prince "R" eating his cookie

Prince "J" and his new teacher Mrs. "S"

This is her 1st year to teach. We know her very well.

We are excited to have her as a teacher this year.

Prince "R" and his Teacher Mrs. "L"

We are excited to have her too...

I hope this will be a wonderful year!!

Mommy of 5

Not sure what to Label this...

2009-08-19T09:40:00.001-05:00

I am not doing really good with this blog thing right now. I have been so busy with the kids and getting my Tupperware Business going that I haven't had much time to write.

So not allot new here. School starts next Monday. I will have 3 kids in school all day this year!! I am so excited. I am also scared, because I didn't work with any of them enough this summer. I am praying that my oldest will do great in 2nd grade. And that the twins do good in Kindergarten. They will not be in the same class. I wanted them to be...but I was talked out of it. Praying it will be the right choose.

My baby is almost 2 and were not pregnant again. This is the longest we have gone not being pregnant again. I am ok with not being pregnant right now. We really can't afford to have another baby right now. But I am praying that God will bless our Family will another little girl some time in the future....

I am going to be joining a new Moms Study Group at Church this Fall. I am so excited to be trying something new. I will get to meet new Moms and get to get out of the house a little. I hope it will be fun and I will learn something.

I have been having allot of trouble falling asleep lately. Not sure why... But it is driving me crazy!! But thats life.....

I have also really been feeling a little lost in life. I realized last night I really need to spend more time in God's Word. So instead of playing on FB at night when I can't sleep, I am going to try and read some of the Bible. Maybe I will find some more peace in my life and feel God's comfort more. I really feel his Blessing in my new Business. He is leading me to people and putting people in my life that are helping me with my new Business. It is so awesome!!

I had my first real Tupperware Party this Sunday. It was great!! I was really nervous, but did ok. There were 3 ladies and the Hostess. My friend "L" Hosted my Tupperware Party. She is great!! She had almost $200 in sales when I got there. And then when I left we had almost $650 in sales!! That is the best party I have ever had in any of my past business. She has a friend that is going to be Hosting a Party for me in Sept. She already has like 20 something people that said they would be coming. I am really nervous about that many people. But I know it will be great. I am so excited!!! My friend "L" has another friend that is going to be Hosting a Party in October. So this is good. My Business is taking off!! I really felt God telling me to try Tupperware and it is really paying off!! I GIVE GOD ALL THE PRAISE AND GLORY IN ALL MY SUCCESS. Because it is not because of me, but because of God's Blessing in my life!!

So I guess that is it. If you want to check out my Tupperware Website click here .

Mommy of 5

Not sure what to Label this...

2009-08-19T09:40:00.000-05:00

Not Sure What Happened??

2009-07-24T14:22:00.001-05:00

Ok. I am not sure why there are so many Tupperware Pictures on the Post below. I only added 1. Who knows??!!!???!!!??

If I Wasn't Busy Enough...

2009-07-24T14:07:00.003-05:00

Hi. I know it has been along time since I last posted. I have been busy.

The 3 older boys and Hubby went to California for 11 days to visit Family. I took the younger 2 and went to a Cabin for 5 days. We all had a good time!!

Now I am taking a new journey in my life. I am now a Tupperware Consultant. I am so excited. I haven't Hosted any Parties yet. But I am trying. It is really hard to get people to Host. But I am praying God will let it all work out. I know people are really busy, so I am just trying to relax and have faith.

So anyways, if you are interested in Tupperware click here and it will take you to my Website. You can order online, contact me for info on Hosting a Home Party, or info on Hosting an Online Party. I would love to help you. If you

Starting on August 15th - August 28th Tupperware is doing a Great Hostess Package. If your Party sells $550 or more you can get $348 worth of products for $10, and if your party sells $750 or more you can get $588 for $10!!!!! That is something Tupperware never does. So this is the time to Sell. This offer is only good for Home Parties or Catalog Parties.

So anyways, that is about it. Trying to get ready for school. So exciting!!

Mommy of 5

Last Few Weeks

2009-06-20T13:44:00.003-05:00

I know it has been a while since I last blogged. I wish I had more to say and more time to write.

The last 2 weeks have been full of things to do. We had Sports Camp at our Church 2 weeks ago. The 3 older boys played Soccer. They loved it. I helped out with the office work and getting things together for the kids. The younger 2 kids were in Childcare for the 4 days of Camp.

I had allot of fun helping 0ut and getting to hang out with friends and new people I met at Church. Princess is excited to get to do Sports Camp next year. They can go to Sports Camp starting at 4. That is will allot of fun to have the 4 of them playing.

This past week we had VBS (Vacation Bible School). Only Prince "A" is old enough to do the Grade School Activities. He has a blast!! The older 4 are in the Preschool VBS, because I volunteered. The older 3 of the ones in the Preschool VBS got to do activities out of the classroom. But Prince "S" had to stay in his class since he is only 1. They get to go the playgroup across from their Pod and go to take a Buggy Ride. But other than that they don't leave the room.

The preschool kids get to do some things like the big kids. They get to go to Preschool Crafts, Chatter (Story time and teaches them about God), and so many other things. They have a Bible Verse for each day and they just love it all. They love getting to play with other kids and getting to learn more about God.

I helped out with Preschool Crafts this year. It was fun and allot of hard work. But getting to see the kids faces each day and how excited they would get to do the craft that day. Was worth it all.

Next year I would love to push the Buggy around, or be in the Baby Nursery room. If I can't do one of those two things I will work in the craft room again.

I did realize that I still struggle with my feelings being hurt. Just with the way sometimes people talk to me or they react to my ideas. I take so many things personally. I had to call a my Friend "A" this week and have her pray for me and my heart. It got hurt several times lately. Of course not on purpose. But I am such a sensitive person and take things to heart.

The coming weeks will be a lot slower. Prince "A" and I have Day Camp next week. I am helping with that as well. He did this last year and had a blast. This will be my 1st time helping. It is all outdoors. It is going to be hot. I just pray that I don't get sunburned.

We also are doing Library Story Time again this year. The kids get to listen to several story's, do a craft, and have a snack. They are doing allot better and sitting still and listening to the story. I am so glad that our small town does this.

We have been to the Splash Pad a couple times this year so far. I am hoping to go allot more. They really love it. This was Prince "S" first time to play in the water. He wasn't to sure about it at first. But then really loved playing in the water with his brothers!!!

I am also hoping to find more time to work with the kids for school next year. I am not to happy about sending Prince "A" to 2nd grade at the new school he is going too. I have heard way too many bad things (not about the teachers) but the school in general. I also didn't have a good 1st impression. She was very rude and not very welcoming or understanding. They are so things they do at the school I don't agree with. If it weren't for the fact that he is suppost to be getting extra help with Math and Reading he wouldn't be going to the school at all. We are having him go one year and see what we think. If I don't like the school he will be pulled out and Homeschooled. I thought I would only Homeschool until they went to Junior High, but I have heard really bad things about that school too. So if I take them out after 1st Grade, they won't go back until High School. I can't send my Children to any school I don't feel comfortable with. I am trusting God to give me whatever I am going to need to teach them and have them learn what they need to learn.

I guess that is it..... For now.

Again I know that this post probably didn't make allot of sense and probably jumped around allot. But oh well...

Mommy of 5

Sports Camp....

2009-06-09T13:46:00.003-05:00

My 3 older boys have been attending Sports Camp this week. We still have 2 more days to go. They are loving it!! They are in the Soccer Camp. I am hoping the next year or so to get them all in Soccer. But we will see.

Princess got to attend her very 1st Dance Class yesterday. She loved it. The teacher we are using has a Summer Program in the Month of June. We will miss 4 of the 8 classes because of Sports Camp and VBS. But we are hoping for her attend this Fall. We will have to wait and see. I just loved seeing her in her little leotard.... Too cute!!

Summer is going good so far. Getting some schooling done with the kid and having them practice writing in their Journal too. We have some activities for this summer too.

We have Story Time at the Library, some activities with the Church Friends they attend Awana's at, and Daddy is taking the 3 boys to visit Grandma, Grandpa, and Aunties this summer. That will be a nice break, VBS, and finishing Sports Camp.

What are your plans for this Summer??

Guess What Happened to Me Yesterday....

2009-05-13T08:58:00.013-05:00

Can you Guess What Happened to Me Yesterday?????

I bet you can't.....

Did I find out I am pregnant with #6?

No....You can pick your jaw off the ground now....

Did I lose one of my kids?

No...not yet......J/K

Did I win the Lottery?

No....I wish.....

Did I drop my....

That also have the remote locking keys.....

While trying to get these sweet children

Prince "R"

Princess

Prince "S"

Out of this.....

When I got out of the Van. I notice the tail end of my Van was in the No Parking Zone. I had Prince "R" sit back down and moved the Van up a bit. I then got the last child unbuckled and was trying to get my keys so I could lock the Van.

So we could go and get these children from school....

Prince "A"

Prince "J"

The problem was this....

While I was trying to get my keys fixed in my hand the right way so I could lock the Van.....

The keys slipped into this....

Yes, that is a storm drain...

Thankfully it wasn't raining and it hadn't been raining for over 24 hours. So my keys shouldn't have moved. I was so shocked and didn't know what to do. So I closed all the doors and went into the school. I asked the Lady in the Office what to do. She called the City and thankfully they got there within 10 minutes. The 2 children that we picked up from school kept asking me why I dropped my keys in the storm drain...Like I did it on purpose...

When the nice Gentleman gave me my kids, I asked how nasty that storm is. He just smile and laughed a bit.....That answered my question. I put the keys in the car and started it. I then sanitized my hands.

When I got home I sprayed my keys with this....

Thankfully, my remote keys still working... The storm drain didn't have allot of water thank goodness. So my keys didn't go anywhere....

Needless to say.... I am never parking next to a storm drain again....

Hope you have a better day......

Mommy of 5

Happy Mother's Day!!

2009-05-10T14:56:00.002-05:00

I hope you have a wonderful Mother's Day today. I hope it is filled with family, loved ones, and great Memories. Remember those Mama's whose Children have left them to early.

I got to spend my Mother's Day sleeping in. Now I am watching "Horton Hears a Who" with my kids!!

Mommy of 5

"Not Me!" Monday....My 1st

2009-05-04T16:56:00.002-05:00

This is the first time I am doing this. It comes from Mck Mama's blog. Here is what she posted about it and how it got started:

Can you believe that it has been exactly seven weeks since my last Not Me! Monday post? I hardly can. And, if you don't know what Not Me! Monday is, then you must be a relative newcomer. If that is the case, let me officially welcome you to my blog. I am glad you are along for the ride! And, while I have you, let me explain Not Me! Monday. A long time ago, I wrote this post on my blog. I thought it was funny to 'fess up about some embarrassing things I'd done that week...by pretending I totally did not actually do them! When I got a great response to that post, with many folks leaving their Not Me's in the comments, which left me in stitches, I decided to turn my idea into a blog carnival. I have not looked back since. You can read all of my old Not Me! Monday entries here.

So here I go:

This past week I didn't go fishing with my 4 older kids and hubby. I didn't actually touch the fish and took them off the hook. I didn't actually get a kick out of doing it. Not me... I am a girl and girls don't do that. I most certainly am not going back today to do it more... Not me...

I didn't just buy some homeschooling books and pocket chart books and pocket charts to work with the kids this summer... Not me... I never thought I would be even thinking of homeschooling.... Not with 5 kids. I don't have the energy for that....Not me.... I am certainly not getting excited about summer and trying to play school with the kids this summer. I am not thinking of working with my younger 2 this coming school year since my 3 older kids will be in school full time.... Not me... Don't have the time or energy for that....

I think that is all I didn't do last week that I care to share.

Now it is your turn.....

Mck Mama is having a contest for anyone that links there Not Me to her blog and signs in with the Mr. Linky....

So have at it...

Mommy of 5

Gone Fishing

2009-05-03T18:51:00.002-05:00

Well, Hubby, the kids (the 4 older ones) and I went Fishing today. We had a ton of fun!!! Hubby's mom has 2 ponds at her house. The front Pond is going to be filled in by the City because they are going to be widening the road. So we will be moving the Fish from the front Pond to the Back Pond soon.

Today we just spent some time together just fishing. We had allot of fun. I even touched the fish and took them off the hook. I impressed myself!!

Hope you all had a good weekend!!

Mommy of 5

Please Pray for Me Tomorrow...May 1st

2009-04-30T11:34:00.002-05:00

My Dad's Anniversary of his passing is tomorrow. He passed away 10 years ago May 1st. He had cancer and just gave up on fighting. I miss him so much. But I know he is in a way better place than he would be here.

Please pray for my 2 brothers and my mom. It will be a very hard day. I just can't believe it has been 10 years.

Please also keep Hubby's Dad in your prayers. He had a very bad heart attack last month. He had 4 stinks put in. He is only 56 years old. Also his Grandma (his dad's mom) is really not doing well. She is tired and not feeling good. She also is having some trouble with her heart. Thankfully she is a believer and a Strong Christian. She is just ready to go home to Jesus.

Thank you for all your prayers...

Mommy of 5

Thank You to My 1st Follower!!

2009-04-30T11:26:00.003-05:00

I wanted to say a BIG THANK YOU to my very 1ST Follower. My friend, Laura, signed up to be a follower of my blog. I was really sad because I have had it up for a few weeks and no one has signed up. I didn't post on it yet because I wanted someone to sign up because they wanted to and not because I was asking for it. If that makes any sense.

Anyways, Thanks again Laura.

Mommy of 5

A Sad Day....

2009-04-11T21:27:00.003-05:00

Our house hold is very sad today. We lost our Lab today. Lewie passed away today. He was about 8 years old. He was really sick for a few months. He was a really good dog. So sweet and loving. Really loved to play with his toys with the kids....

We are so sad that he is gone. But we are happy that he in Heaven and not sick anymore. Please pray for the kids and hubby and I. We all really loved Lewie. We have lost allot of people this year and had allot of close calls. And it is only April.

Thanks,

Mommy of 5

1st Hair Cut in 3 Years....

2009-04-06T16:42:00.004-05:00

Well, I finally took the plunge and had my hair cut. I had sent out an email to people I knew here. I got a name for a little Hispanic women. She was great!!! She did a great job. I love it!!!

If you click here you can see a picture from last year when I dyed my hair purple for the March of Dimes. It will show somewhat how long my hair was. It was a little long since it was from a year ago. I am going to donate the hair that was cut off. It feels a bit weird, but I really like it. I got a straight iron so I can straighten it myself. I have curly and straight and wavy hair so it will be interesting to see how it looks when it still is wet and not completely straight. But hopefully I will continue to love it. I haven't had it this short in a while...

I took some pictures with the kids so I could show you...

Hubby and I...

My love and I....

Me and Princess

Me and Prince "J"

Me and my new hair cut...

Just me...

Let me know what you think...

Mommy of 5

Just Venting...

2009-04-04T14:33:00.000-05:00

Ok. I wish I had the link to my other blog. I have one that I made just so I could vent about anything without fearing about what people would think or who was reading it.

But it is on my other computer and I am to lazy to get it. So I will make this as broad as I can.

I am frustrated with people in my life. Not my hubby or kids. But other people...I am frustrated how people treat other people. The looks, the comments, the gossip, and just being so bitchy. I hate it. I hate when people pretend to be your friend. But when you really need them they aren't there. That has been my life story since I was little. Growing up I had very few friends. And even then when I really needed someone no one was there. But God always was.

The one thing in my life that has remained constant and never changing is God. He is the only person that has never left me. He is always there. No matter how far I may stray at times, no matter how much I may sin, or how bitchy I can be at times. He has never left me. The times in my life where I feel like I can't go on anymore (had allot of those when I was younger) He would pick me up and carry me. God blessed me with a puppy when I was about 11 or 12. That was a miracle. Without that puppy (who was really meant as a present to my younger brother for his birthday...But attached itself to me) and God I wouldn't be here today. I had a very tough childhood. Not because of abuse from parents. But from kids and all kids. They were mean and hateful. They made me want to die and just go to Heaven. I would ask God to take me away so that I didn't have to take it anymore. But he didn't. I would fake being sick allot starting at 4th grade until I graduated just so I wouldn't have to go to school. I hated school. I was that one child in every class in elementary and the one child in the school in Junior High and High School that everyone made fun of, teased, or talked about. I am not kidding or being too dramatic. I lived this.. I know.

I had 1 friend in 4 to 6 grade. She left after 6th grade and moved away. I made 2 friends, by the grace of God, in 7th grade. They lasted until 10th grade. One of my friends dropped out of school then and the other got into drugs and turned gay. I was alone again. I made a Good friend in the 2nd half of 7th Grade. I can't remember how long she stayed at the school that I went too. I know not long. But we stayed friends. We are still friends now. She is really one of the only people I can completely trust with my inner most thoughts. I know she won't gossip (she lives really far away....Makes me sad. I wish she was closer so we could hang out), she won't freak out when I tell her how I feel sometimes, she doesn't think I am a bad mom or friend, she just loves me for me.

I have a hand full maybe a little more that I know care deeply for me. And I care deeply for them. But we just don't have the personal relationship that I have with my friend "K". I can tell her anything and not scared to do so. She is really the only one now that I can do that with. I am waiting on a reply from a friend "A" to see if she would be my accountability partner. I could really use one of those that is closer. I am hoping to go deeper with her and being able to completely open up to her as I have been able to do so with my friend "K".

I am so blessed to have the friends that I have in my life. They are great!! Please know that you are if you are reading this!! I know that if I need anything you are there!! If I need prayer you pray for me, if we need food you bring food, if we need love and support I know you will come running. But because of the hurt I have been through, the gossip that has been spread, the lies that have been told, and the pain my family has been through because of a few people that have faked being my friend. I am slow to completely open myself up to many people.

Having a best friend is so important to me. I have one and am blessed to have her....Mrs."K.....You are so special!!!

I am not sure how I got onto all this. I am still just frustrated with people in my life...just a few. Just they can really hurt so much with their words and actions. But I am learning I just don't need those people in my life. Life is too short to let people bring you down. I am praying that God will continue to bring Godly people into my life that will be uplifting and positive. People that will not judge or gossip. People that will be a Godly example!!!!

Friends that I reading this: Please don't read this and think I am talking about you. I just needed to vent. If I had a problem with someone I would go and talk to you. Or in some cases just stop talking altogether. But those of you that I believe read this: Robin, Laura, Deanna, and so on...You know I love you all very much and care deeply for you!!!

Please again.....just know I just needed to vent. I blog about what I need to vent about...Please don't take anything personally!!!

Mommy of 5

Prayers Still Needed

2009-03-25T10:09:00.002-05:00

Stellan is still in need of prayers. His heart has not corrected itself yet. MckMama is having a hard time watching her baby struggle like this. As I am sure we all would. Please click the the picure of Stellan below. It will bring you straight to MckMama's homepage.

Please leave a comment and let her know you are praying. The family could really use all the prayers they can get right now.

Thanks,

Mommy of 5

Ugrent Prayer Request....

2009-03-23T11:51:00.001-05:00

Please keep Stellan in your prayers. Click here or on Stellan's name to read about him. MckMama is at the hospital with him. She really needs your prayers too right now.. Her Hubby, Prince Charming, is at home with the other 3 kids. He also needs your prayers!!!

I will try to keep this updated as well!!!